New beginnings?

Maybe it's because I started the new year off with the flu,Or maybe it's because my daughters stepmother ended up on life support for a short while(she's better now,still in the hospital with pnuemonia but getting better) But I have been reflecting on past years for the past 5 years it's not been so good. I guess I have still been in a fog(finding my husband dead i went into a depression)  not sure. But I am planning on making this year better brighter. I have realized that crocheting makes my days better. That's what I have looked back on. The one thing I have never done is crochet a blanket for me all my own. I look at other peoples blogs they have such pretty bright afghans blankets and throws and I realize I have never made me one. I'm crocheting Easter baskets and valentines thingys now for a craft market but afterwards I think I will start on something for me,I want to brighten my room up anyways. I laugh now but I believe the first blanket I ever made I made for my grandma when I was younger I saw it a few years ago my Aunt reminded me that I had made it grandma kept it on her bed. It was uneven and wavy but grandma used it. years later I made a blanket full of prayers for a resident that I loved like a grandmother I had started it before she   was diagnosed with cancer and finished it after she was bed bound she loved it her cancer advanced fast. After she passed her daughter asked me if she could have it because it meant so much to her mother,I was honored. Then my mother in law wanted one and after she passed my sister in law wanted hers because she covered with it everyday.So you see the pattern I never thought to make me one.